My dear blog “family”,

Hello, from this winter season upon us! You will find that my blog posts have slowed to a few drops here and there! Life has been busy. I have been going through some soul-searching and questioning. Things along the line of…does blogging make a difference? Is my time spent blogging a waste?etc. as well as inner questions such as strongholds of fear and insecurity, what are the roots? etc. Freedom in Christ, prayer, blessing and the list goes on. Besides that we have done remodeling to our house. I am choosing to make a radical decision. I/we are choosing to get rid of our internet in our home for the next couple months. This will slow my blogging down to barely a trickle but right now I am raising babies for the kingdom.

I have a six-year-old girl who I’m teaching to be a young lady. A six-year-old who has an amazing vision to be a missionary nurse some day. This takes investing. I will not have her forever.

I have a small lad who is three. He’s ambitious, a pioneer  by nature. God has huge plans for this young man. But today is the day I can soothe his boo boos. Today is the day he can sit on my lap and be hugged and kissed and nurtured! In a blink he will be grown!

I’ve got a 6 month old living dolly. She is more laid back than my other two but God has a plan for her! I know because God has had His hand upon her since her conception. Medically speaking, she shouldn’t be healthy or normal but she is! She is the child who will take life as it comes resting and nurturing. She won’t always be my baby. Now I get to cuddle and comfort her but the day is quickly coming when it will take more than that to comfort her.

I have an awesome husband that I want to grow old with. This means taking time now! Time with and without our precious children. I don’t want all the children to marry and leave home and be left to live with a stranger. This means date nights now! Kisses now! Words of affirmation now! Time now!

So I’m getting rid of my internet. It won’t be easy for me because I LOVE research, pinterest, e-mail, and facebook! It is a great crutch. But now there is more important things that I need to be investing in! Things I count more important. It is like the next couple months will be like intensive care units for my little family! Then there are other things, like our church’s children ministry an hour’s drive from our house every week, our church, and friendships.

I have living souls to engage. Souls to cherish. Lives to touch and memories to make.

“Letting Go”~

I am not sure who the author of this was or where I got it but figured it was worth sharing.

To let go doesn’t meant to stop caring…it means I can’t do it for someone else.

To let go is not to cut myself off…it’s the realization that I can’t control another.

To let go is not to enable…but to allow learning from natural consequences.

To let go is to admit powerlessness…which means the outcome is not in my hands.

To let go is not to try to change or blame another…I can only change myself.

To let go is not to care for…but to care about.

To let go is not to fix…but to be supportive.

To let go is not judge…but to allow another to be a human being.

To let go is not to be in the middle of arranging all the outcomes…but to allow the others to experience the effect of their own outcomes.

To let go is not to be protective…it is to permit another to face reality.

To let go is not to deny..but to accept.

To let go is not to nag, scold, or argue…but to search out my own shortcomings and to correct them.

To let go is not to adjust everything to my desires…but to take each day as it comes and to cherish the moment.

To let go is not to criticize and regulate anyone…but to try to become what I dream I can be.

To let go is not to regret the past…but to grow and live for the future.

To let go is to fear less and love more.

These are instructions on how to let go…perhaps it is of a rebellious child, burden or sorrow, losing a loved one or learning to live with a heartache, which we just cannot let go of. Read this over…Study it… Pray over it… and you will find that letting go of your load will release a peace within you, which will allow your spirit to soar…to be free…to completely give it to God…and let a work be done within you where the need is anyway.

Thanksgiving-Photo Journey

Hi folks! I’ve been noticeably absent from blogging due to many interruptions in schedule and much needed updates being performed to our primary residence. But I invite you to join me on my photo journey…

Beautiful fall scenery and a Christmas wreath

Cold noses, strong legs, and the smiles of those I love best!

Thanksgiving bounty feast at Godilocks Grandma’s house…

We’ve so many things to be grateful for! Most of all, freedom through the blood of Jesus!!! May God be near each of my blog readers in a very special way during this holiday season!


Testimony Tuesday-Nigeria’s Red Letter Bible

The following is adapted from the November 2012 issue of “The Voice of the Martyrs” magazine.

Suleiman Abdulai is a Nigerian Christian who accepts the persecution promised by Christ. His Muslim family urged him to deny Jesus’ name and even tried to kill him, before finally disowning him. But, as Jesus promised in Matthew 10, the Holy Spirit gave him the words to speak before his accusers. Although faith in Christ has cost Suleiman his family, worldly possessions and reputation, he gained everything!

Suleiman was born into a wealthy northern Nigerian Muslim family. A smart young man, he used his sharp tongue and fierce intellect to debate publicly with Christians, trying to humiliate them. He thought frustrating the lives of Christians would help him earn enough favor to get to heaven.

His confidence in Islam began to weaken after he agreed to attend a Christian church service with a  woman from work named Elizabeth.

The first church service caused Suleiman to question his Muslim faith. It seemed that the pastor was speaking directly to him that Sunday morning describing things he’d done. Suleiman was shaken. He angrily accused Elizabeth for tipping the pastor off. When she adamantly denied it, he decided he’d test the pastor. He snuck into the church the next week and sat in the back. Again, it was as if the pastor were speaking directly to him. “He said thing that I never told anyone before,” Suleiman said.

After attending only two Christian church services, he was persuaded that he had found the truth. He gave his life to Christ and began studying the Bible, telling anyone who would listen to him about his new Christian faith. When Suleiman’s family heard rumors that he had turned away from Islam, they confronted him. “Have you given your life to Christ?” they asked. Suleiman willingly admitted that he had describing what he had experienced in church.

In anger and disbelief, his family asked how much money the church had given him to convert. “There is no money,” Suleiman told them. “I received the gift of light.” His family gave him a few weeks to reconsider his decision and called every Muslim leader they knew to pray for their wayward son. After several weeks with no apparent change, Suleiman’s father demanded “Deny this religion!”  But Suleiman replied, “No, it is impossible, because I have discovered the truth.”

Suleiman and Elizabeth got married. He then took her to meet his family but they remained furious about his conversion and his Christian wife. The entire family gathered around as his father insisted, “Deny this Christ or be killed!” His aunts cried and asked him, “Why can’t you deny him or at least pretend to deny the faith?”

Elizabeth shook with fear as she listened in the next room. She was certain he would be killed right then.

As the hours passed, Suleiman felt himself being worn down. “When the pressure was too much, I heard a voice,” he said. “I looked around but didn’t see a person. I heard him say, ‘If you deny me before man, I will deny you before my Father,’ This is when I knew Jesus was there.”

Confident that Christ was standing right beside him, Suleimand told his family, “I’m not going to deny who I serve. I am ready to die, because I know He is here.” Sensing that the Holy Spirit was urging him to leave, he walked to the next room, took his wife by the hand, and left his family’s house. “As soon as we got outside,” he said, “we started to run.”

He and his wife escaped that potentially deadly confrontation but his family came looking for him. Although he hadn’t told them where he lived, they managed to find his apartment. One day while Suleiman was away visiting with a friend, a mob armed with automatic weapons descended upon the building where he lived. Later, his neighbors told him that the men from his family said they would kill him when they found him. Suleiman said that realizing the Holy Spirit had led him away from his apartment that day gave the him the “strength and confidence to serve Him with all of my heart.”

“After I gave my life to Christ, I would lock myself in a room to cry, I was not sad because I was missing my family, but I was sad because they are not going to heaven.”

Suleiman is now an evangelist and public speaker who lectures on Islam and shares his testimony. When he is not busy speaking, he spends his time ministering to converts from Islam to Christianity.

Suleiman isn’t consumed by fear because he is convinced that Islam is false. “There is no peace in Islam,” he said. “Islam brings division, and the only way we can overcome Islam is by love-not by fighting, not by rioting. It is by love. If we can take the love of God and begin to share it with people, Islam will fall.”

He knows the Gospel is the answer. “We should not be scared. We have the power of God in us to reach a dying world.”

This year Suleimand intends to focus on sharing the gospel with Muslim leaders. “Anyone who kills me as a converted Muslim, his reward is double,” he said. “But we will not be afraid. We will still preach the Gospel to them.” He asks that we pray for his preservation, but said, “For me, to die is gain.”

To support persecuted Christians and learn more of their plight, check out: http://www.persecution.com/


Forgiveness. A recent episode spiked my interest in this topic. Everyone in this world has been wronged in some way or another, some times in subtle ways and at other times in ways like the boom of thunder in a summer storm. How do you deal with this? Some of the classic responses are anger, sadness, rejection, revenge, gossip, and the list goes on; slowly poisoning our hearts and minds and those of the individuals that surround us. I am often right with the list. A hot trigger point for me is when the other person gets off looking and smelling like a rose! What are your trigger points? How do I deal with them? How does Christ look at forgiveness? What does it mean to walk the path of freedom in forgiveness? These are some things that I want to tackle in this post.

What is forgiveness? Forgiveness means granting pardon, mercy, releasing the need to judge another, separating the person from the action. Forgiveness is not denial, condoning, or forgetting.

First of all, we need to look at the pain. Acknowledge what has been done, how it made you feel and your current feelings. Don’t try to cover them up with food, internet, etc. Doing that is “hueing out broken cisterns” (Jer.2:13).

Step two-pray. Have you ever found yourself unable or unwilling to forgive? Ask God to break down the walls of unforgiveness in your heart. Spend lots of time with God, only He is able to bring healing to the pain. Ask God to show you the truth in the situation. Pray that the lies spoken to you would be broken in Jesus Name. Take responsibility and confess your part in the incident.

Step three-make the conscious decision to forgive. This is not about feelings! It is about a deliberate choice to walk in obedience to God. It is called faith. One may find it helpful to write out what happen. “I forgive ___________ for ____________. It made me feel _________________. Write down as much as you need to. Take the paper and pray about what you wrote. Then burn it, flush it, or rip it in pieces. As you say, “I am choosing to forgive ______________ for ____________.” Don’t expect change in the other person. Expect it in you. Forgiveness is a journey. It takes time. And some times you have to make the conscious choice again and again.

Colossians 3:13
Bear with each other and forgive one another if any of you has a grievance against someone. Forgive as the Lord forgave you.

Matthew 6:14-16
For if you forgive men when they sin against you, your heavenly Father will also forgive you. But if you do not forgive men their sins, your Father will not forgive your sins.

 “To be forgiven is such sweetness that honey is tasteless in comparison with it. But yet there is one thing sweeter still, and that is to forgive. As it is more blessed to give than to receive, so to forgive rises a stage higher in experience than to be forgiven.” –Charles Spurgeon